Day 1 & 2

So yesterday was my first day on the diet and I have to admit that I craved something sweet all day. I wanted to eat ice cream, I wanted to eat some warm home baked cookies, but I didn't. I realized that when I make plans to leave my apt, the first thought in my mind is where am I going to get a snack. I have stopped getting food while I am out by reading the "Eat This, Not That" book. It really opens your eyes to the food that is out there and the calories that are in them. A lot of things I thought weren't so bad REALLY are.

I ended up going to the gym twice yesterday. In the morning I met with a trainer and he wrote down a plan for me. I found out that having a membership to Planet Fitness means that you can have unlimited trainer sessions, sometimes in a group, but that's still great. I signed up for an appt for today (Tuesday). I also went to the gym with my husband too. We worked out on a new machine that I struggled with, but was able to do 10 mins on. I have found my challenge for the gym!!!!!

I didn't make it to the appt today (Tuesday) because I went to bed really late with my little one. I need to learn that I just need to go ahead and get up and go to the gym. No more excuses!!! I have to do this.

Something I learned today is that you have to give in a little to your cravings or they will consume you. Today I was thinking about something sweet, so instead of torturing myself anymore, I decided to buy myself a treat. I bought some Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches. They have 160 calories but I LOVE ICE CREAM and sometimes I deserve a treat.

Tomorrow I will start again with going to the gym!!!! I have to be strong. Right now my lil one doesn't appear to be going to sleep and it's early Wed. at 12:24am. I hope I can get up tomorrow and make it to the gym. If not I will be going tomorrow night.

GOOD NIGHT or GOOD MORNING!!!!

A New Beginning

So... I was watching "Heavy" last night on OnDemand and something sparked in me. I was watching the story about Ashley and Sharon. I saw myself in both of these women. I related to Ashley because we are about the same age and have the same kind of relationships with foods. When she said that sometimes she eats things and then afterwards thinks "why did I just eat that" I could hear myself saying the same thing. I was waiting to see what her weight was because I just knew she was heavier than me. Her starting weight was 296lbs. I was shocked because she was about 70lbs lighter than me. Sharon reminded me of myself because I eat out of emotions and I feed others to make them happy and so they will like me. Sharon weighed a pound less than me at 366lbs. She appeared to be much smaller than me but she was a pound under me. I was shocked. I told my self that I have to get this under control.

I am determined to get down to 250lbs by August. I am going to start to eat right and exercise. I know it will be hard especially with the strains of my family, but I have to. If not for me, for my kids. I want to see them grow up and I want to be an active member in their lives. I will be tracking my weight with MedHelp.org weight tracker. I have taken all my measurements and I'm ready to start. I know that there will be some hard times and some good times, but I have to make it through them both!!!!

WISH ME LUCK!!!!!